If Only for a Moment

I found you once

While I was hiding in the shelter of solitude

But you were tucked deep in the darkest places

Unmasked, all of your many faces

Illuminated by all of your potential, I found you

In that moment, I vowed to never let you go

But truth be told

You’re the only thing that saved me

You made me a believer with all of your impossibility

Turned practical in the matter of instants

The reality that I could be the one that wins it

Even if just for a moment

What others would die for

Have killed for

I found spilling over

Ready to change the heart

Of an all un-expecting

Never regretting

Fragile yet invincible spirit

That spirit was me

In all of my destitute, you redeemed me

I had prayed for you

For salvation from the pain

To regain my consciousness

I was dying, you know?

Drowning in the realness of humanity

But you challenged me

To be greater

And to think deeper than even boundless dreamers

And I did

I held on tight

Even if only for a moment

And you were just right

Even if only to me

And I

Will never

Regret knowing the depth of your existence

Even now that I remain confined in the prison of your memory

In faint moments, those memories are all that I have

To remind me of your presence

To secure your existence

In those memories, I’m free again

Happy tears of a faded friend

Truth bends

And lies prevail

But reality is unyielding

Time and time again it proves your being

But if seeing is believing

You’ll be left lifeless in the minds of the brokenhearted

Because you can’t be seen

Only felt

And I found you

Hiding

Planted in the perfect place

Perhaps waiting for a fading spirit

To have one sweet taste of life through you

You spared me

But you gave your time sparingly

Leaving way faster than you came

Now in faint moments I can barely remember your name

Love

I’m terrified you won’t return to me

Yet I know you can’t be reserved for only me

My only hope is that your absence is caused

Not by a loss

But a short intermediary deficiency

Because you’re off blessing someone who isn’t me

And I’ll wait for you

Hoping that you are not the cousin to the moon

Here to bring deliverance

Then gone too soon

Only appearing in the darkest hour

Shining your light

But taking your power with you

I’m hoping

But still, if only for that moment

That your time is borrowed but not lent

It’ll be enough to give my spirit comfort

So, until we meet again…